this is exactly what i was trying to change :(

Starting on a good note,

dancing exam is done and behind me
netball has one last week to go
stump is in 45 days :)

i sung in music today and infront of the two music classes
as part of our progress mark
also to get us used to performing infront of other people.

yet again someone has told me that apparently i look like im flirting with someone
its not on purpose if i am
hes my friend
were enjoying ourselves
thats it

knowing that most of this is just me talking complete crap i didnt think that many people were reading it
thats y i tend to rant a bit
coz generally the rants are actually directed at people
but as someone actually reads this
i realised thats exactly wat i wanted to change
apparently over the last couple of weeks ive changed
for one reason or another
one of the things i really wanted to change
was pretending about how i felt
just to make someone else feel better
almost everytime
the person ive tried to protect finds out anyway
and in the end i basically go off at somebody else instead
so im sorry if i say something u dont wanna hear
but im over pretending

so besides that
i also have a guy who is in love with me
he knows i dont like him
i have reminded in repeatedly
but apparently thats not good enough for him
now hes buying me a bear
hes recruiting my friends to try to get me to like him
and hes getting one of my friends to check wat ive said
like if i mention one of my guy friends he then asks her to find out if i like this guy
grr its frustrating

gotta love being a teenager

well this has made me feel soo much better *total sarcasm there*
so im out

lovveee <3