Sing Us A Song And We'll Sing It Back To You

I am finding out that maybe I was wrong, that I've fallen down and I can't do this alone.
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-I thought I had moved on.
I thought I was over everything.
Not talking to you made that easy to believe.
But I was just fooling myself.
This heart, it beats, beats for only you.
Talking to you... it was as if nothing had changed.
It felt so comfortable and easy.
It made me realise how much I miss you.
How much I want to fix this.
But I think I'm trying for nothing.
Because she's amazing and you'd never settle for me.
Not after everything.
So I'll smile and be happy for you.
Because she is so much better for you than I ever was.

- You and I, we don't know how to do this.
It's everything or nothing for us really.
But it can't be everything.
So really it's nothing but we pretend it's more.
I don't know how much longer I can keep this up for.
It's pulling at my heart and messing with my head.
But I can't say anything because I can't risk losing you or hurting you.

-The year 11 major production of Alice in Wonderland was amazing.
The girls are so easy to work with and are great to learn from.
If you didn't see it, you definitely missed out.


Love you Jessica Dear <3

Sugar Sugar :)

He's sweet right :)

After hearing a few wise words lately
I've decided something.
I'm letting go of my anger.
That doesn't mean I want to see you
Or have anything to say to you.
I'm just not angry anymore.


LOVEYOU JESSICA DEAR <3

Normal Aye?

We've been through this before.
Flirting, flirting, flirting, then nothing.
We agree that being friends is the way to go
And to go back to how things were.
But it never happens like that.
We don't talk. We don't acknowledge each other most of the time.
But whatever, I know this is how it needs to be.
There's too much at risk otherwise.
For someone who's pretty important in my life, how come we just can't seem to get it right.

What about you?
We're friends too right?
But we don't even talk.
Granted I have nothing worth saying to you.
Pretty much coz it would end in a fight anyway.
1 month with her today huh?
You got together after my birthday how sweet of you.
We had been broken up for 5 days.

I'm so sick of this 'Let's be friends' thing
What if I don't want to be just friends?
But I guess I don't get a choice in that do I?
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Just gonna stand there And watch me burn
But that's alright Because I like The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright Because I love The way you lie
I love the way you lie, I love the way you lie

I can't tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now there's a steel knife In my windpipe
I can't breathe But I still fight
While I can fight As long as the wrong feels right
It's like I'm in flight High of a love
Drunk from the hate It's like I'm huffing paint
And I love it the more that I suffer,I sufficate
And right before I'm about to drown She resuscitates me
She freaking hates me And I love it
Wait, Where you going?
I'm leaving you
No you ain't
Come back
We're running right back
Here we go again It's so insane
Cause when it's going good, It's going great
I'm Superman With the wind in his bag
She's Lois Lane But when it's bad, It's awful
I feel so ashamed I snap
Who's that dude?
I don't even know his name
I laid hands on her, I'll never stoop so low again
I guess I don't know my own strength

Just gonna stand there And watch me burn
But that's alright Because I like The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there And hear me cry
But that's alright Because I love The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

You ever love somebody so much You can barely breathe When you're with them
You meet And neither one of you
Even know what hit 'em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling, Yeah them chills Used to get 'em
Now you're getting freaking sick Of looking at 'em
You swore you've never hit 'em, Never do nothing to hurt 'em
Now you're in each other's face, Spewing venom
And these words When you spit 'em
You push, Pull each other's hair
Scratch, claw, bit 'em, Throw 'em down, Pin 'em
So lost in the moments,When you're in 'em
It's the rage that took over
It controls you both
So they say it's best To go your separate ways
Guess that they don't know ya
Cause today
That was yesterday
Yesterday is over
It's a different day
Sound like broken records
Playin' over
But you promised her Next time you'll show restraint
You don't get another chance
Life is no Nintendo game
But you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave Out the window
Guess that's why they call it window pane

Just gonna stand there And watch me burn
But that's alright Because I like The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there And hear me cry
But that's alright Because I love The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

Now I know we said things
Did things
That we didn't mean
And we fall back
Into the same patterns
Same routine
But your temper's just as bad
As mine is
You're the same as me
But when it comes to love
You're just as blinded
Baby please come back
It wasn't you
Baby it was me
Maybe our relationship
Isn't as crazy as it seems
Maybe that's what happens
When a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is
I love you too much
To walk away though
Come inside
Pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don't you hear sincerity
In my voice when I talk
Told you this is my fault
Look me in the eyeball
Next time I'm pissed
I'll aim my fist
At the dry wall
Next time
There will be no next time
I apologize
Even though I know it's lies
I'm tired of the games
I just want her back
I know I'm a liar
If she ever tries to freaking leave again
I'mma tie her to the bed
And set the house on fire

Just gonna stand there And watch me burn
But that's alright Because I like The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there And hear me cry
But that's alright Because I love The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie


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Love you Jess Dear <3

Snippy ;)

What a weird word ^^

I had an interesting talk today about how groups are changing and how people are changing. Have I mentioned I hate high school?
I also discussed religion with some people. We agreed a lot which is nice for a change considering how much controversy religion causes.
Girls Group ran their service and it went fantastically :) Even if I was sick.
Speaking of which, I have to get an ultrasound now.
No I'm not pregnant.
But because I was sick all of last week, they need to work out what's wrong.

Friday night shall be entertaining. Someone shall die :)

A very important girl is now 15 :)
She's soo old right?

Regionals for drama !

I feel like I need to rant again but I don't know about what.
Give me a little while I may have something to rant about.


LOVEYOUU JESSICA XX

How Nice.

Well isn't that lovely.
You're in a relationship already.
Nice to know you loved me so much, you could move on in just over a week.
Yeah I screwed up, I know that.
Get over it.
You don't need to remind me constantly.
This is partly your fault too.
You told me you liked her but you liked me more. Obviously that wasn't true.
If you liked me so much, it shouldn't have been so easy to let me go.
Now your hers.
She's so very lucky.
I wonder if she knows just a week before you dated her, you were telling me how much you loved me.
Interesting how things change no?
This is all the stuff I can't say to you because if I do you tell me off for starting a fight.
Because it's my fault everytime right?
I still love you and hate that I messed things up.
But I'm sick of fighting you and fighting for you. It's a losing battle.
I don't want to let you go but since you let me go so easily,
Why should I bother?
I'm done. This is all I can handle.





LOVEYOUU JESSICA !

Shut It Down

OOOOOOOOOH can't tell me nothing now
baby i know how to fly.

Well interesting how things change isn't it.
I went from happily being in a relationship
to doing something stupid to ruin it.
now all we do is fight and make up.
I realise i ruined things but i dont need to be reminded it all the time.

LOVEYOUUU JESSICA :)
you too rachael deary !

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I love you jessica :)

Grr i managed to injure my back. So I haven't been doing much.
Schools weird. High school makes everything complicated.

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I love you too deary :)

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I love this girl :)

and a special boy too.
I love you babe :)